Okay, so yesterday I thought I felt crummy but I didn't realize just how bad things were going to get until today.
I woke up with big plans. I was hoping to do a Bryan Estes special today meaning a long run on Cougar Mt with one Squak Mt summit thrown in. I thought I was ready so got my gear in order and headed out.
Wow. I have not seen the Cougar Mountain Red Town Trail parking lot this full in a LONG time. I guess part of it was my arrival time which was way later than I'm usually here and part of it was a giant school field trip/hike that was heading out. I quickly got me shit sorted and managed to pass this group on the first hill. Whew.
I'm not going to over-share here or anything but I have had some stress in my life that is obviously affecting me in all kinds of ways. I already know that it is sabotaging my sleep and my motivation to exercise but usually when I actually get to the gym/trail/whatever I can execute the plan. Not today.
ASIDE - and in retrospect, not on several other days as well.
Once I passed these kids and was alone my brain shifted into overdrive. And that was not good.
You know when you overthink something - to death - and the more you do the less you are able to come to terms with it? That was me. 1.8 miles into my run I'm walking. .5 miles later I'm walking again. It wasn't because this was a hard route or because I was beat, I was just letting my brain go crazy. Around 2.6 miles in I found myself standing in the trail staring at my watch thinking that I was not even half way through the shortest loop I knew on Cougar Mt and all I wanted to do was cry instead of run.
So I did. I think it helped. A little.
After my tiny meltdown I turned around and ran back to the car. Perhaps because this was mostly downhill or because I could imagine myself finishing (heading the other way I could NOT) I was able to speed up. For a few brief moments I really pushed the pace but mostly I just wanted to get the hell back to the car and get out of here.
That was a humbling experience.
Lucky for me I have a friend (Tony Callen) with a very flexible schedule who likes to ride mountain bikes. I texted him as soon as I got home and two hours later were were riding on Tiger Mountain. Nice.
This was the perfect antidote to my morning misery. We talked, I told him what was on my mind and he was supportive. After the ride - which was a BLAST - I got us nachos and beer at the Roanoke Inn on Mercer Island. Therapy at a bargain price.
Oh yeah, I also tried my new Brooks Cascadia 9 shoes today, they felt kind of narrow(?) but it was nice to have new shoes. I bet I just need to break them in. And that will need to be some other day.
|Workout Food||run - a few sips from my bottle but not much really|
ride - bottle w/1.5 scoops Perpetuem
|Time of Day||run - 9:00 AM|
ride - 12:45 PM
|Course||run - the first 2.5 miles of the Cougar 10 loop|
ride - up the road, Preston Railroad Grade Trail, Fully Rigid, Joy Ride, Timber Trail
|Equipment||run - Brooks Cascadia 9, UltrAspire Alpha, Garmin Fenix|
ride - Performance Access XCL, Garmin Edge 500
|Clothing||run - Injinji Run Original Weight Mini-Crew, Brooks Infinity Short III, Brooks Podium SS shirt|